I hope.

I hope everyone just feels better. I'm tired of all sorrow, hurt, the pain. I don't like what this world is coming to, I hope it can change. Soon. Knowing how things usually go, though, it will probably get worse. But I have hope.

Guys.

Okay. Well, I'm officially done with guys. They are all so stupid and immature at this age. I've decided to just wait until the right guy comes along, instead of looking for love. Maybe if I quit looking it will find me. Hopefully at the right time. I feel free now, not liking any guy or worrying about this and that when it comes to guys. "Oh, does he like me? I wonder...." No. Not anymore. I love having this independent feeling... and I don't need that kind of crap on my mind all the time. I deal with enough crap from home. Girls, being guy crazy is not the way to be in highschool. All of us are at one point or another. I was, and now, I'm a lot happier not worrying about that all the time and focusing on just enjoying life and taking things day by day. Don't dwell on the past or worry about the future. Live in the present, that's how I stay happy. :D

I had to.

My feelings for you were not what I thought. We have to stay friends. I don't think I can manage more than that, you are too good of a friend, and I wouldn't want a relationship to mess that up. I had to tell you. I couldn't stand it anymore. Hopefully one day you will understand, and the heartbreak I've caused you and myself will be forgotten.

Sinking.

I'm drowning in all this bull shit. I just don't know what to do anymore. Things are just getting worse and worse. There are so many thoughts swirling around in my head I don't know what to think anymore.  Fighting and arguing constantly is not my cup of tea, especially when it's with someone I live with. Someone I have to see everyday. I just want peace. Peace and quiet. Is that too much to ask for?